realization

it's been a realization

a discovery

an awakening

to look into the mirror

to admit

that I've hated myself

all of my life

i hate myself

but I don't want to anymore

I don't hate people

not even the world on most days

but I despise me

because I don't know any other way

I've neved loved or accepted

myself

never created something for me

out of love

all's been out of hate

because i don't know any other way

𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥, 𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀 𝕕𝕖𝕤𝕚𝕣𝕖