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Tt was in the middle of the afternoon after thinking you weren't going to do it in the end. I had waited all that week for your long message, it never came, I gave up but you sorprised me. 

I was in shock. Two days later here I am, feeling it all, listening to All Too Well as it was written for me and you. All the sad songs are for me. Taylor and Adele wrote for me, TVXQ sang Love in the Ice and Doushite kimi wa suki ni natte shimattandarou? for me. 

Will I ever feel better?

I'm missing you like hell 

Do you miss me too? 

Am I the only one suffering, crying and writing silly post on her journal and their blog? 

Do you remember it all? 

I thanked you for the apologies. I deserve all of them. 

You weren't the bad one, we both were. I'm having trouble discovering what I did wrong. Instead of failing you, I did fail myself, for not seeing what you were giving me were crumbles of love. I want it all, you gave me only a part of it. The worst thing is that I was happy for that. 

How would it feel to have it all? Would I ever know?

I would like to have it with you. I don't know if that's possible. My minds is blurry. I can't see. I want to recover, to heal from you, to be with me, to write all the things I couldn't when I was with you. 

Why is that? Why couldn't I write like I used to? Everything I did felt silly when I was with you. I'm not stupid. I deserve better. A better woman. A better you; you deserve a better me, a confident me, a know-what-she-wants type of woman. I deserve it too. 

I miss you

Do you? 

Will I ever stop missing you?