missing you hours

I miss the old old days

that doesn't mean I don't love you still.

I watched our pictures together 

all the good and bad times we had 

I think I could be stronger 

should I be? 

Do you want me to be stronger for you? 

or is it just me feeling humiliated by you?

This is when I remember you didn't tell me you loved me in months... you couldn't answer me.

Should I understand you by your state?

 or is that too much empathy?

You said I broke your heart because I couldn't be your friend, because I used the word "terminamos", but you said you wanted to be my friend and you haven't written me in more than a month.

I can be stronger for the both if us,

but it's not fair for me,

it's not fair for me anymore.

I love you, I loved you

did you?

I miss you

I miss the old you

the old old you.

I want us to be together

but we can't,

it's too much for the both of us,

maybe time wasn't never right

a one sided thing

I have to remember this, remember this to feel my heart break again and to stop missing you because it is fair to say you don't miss me because you can't feel anything about me

on the other hand I get to feel it all

it's still not fair.

I want to ask you how are you, how are you doing, but then I remember you didn't even told me when we were together

when we were a couple.

Was I weak?

Dit's probable I'm going to know about you when you speak casually about what you're going through, like if nothing's happening, 

but everything is.

 

Your anxiety, your sleep.

Are you sleeping? How are things?

You should go to therapy

but you didn't hear me when we were together.

Why would you know that we're not even friends???? 

Didn't you trust me enough to tell me?

I think you didn't even tell me when we were together and then I tell myself I don't need to ask you to hear the same answer again.