𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥, 𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀 𝕕𝕖𝕤𝕚𝕣𝕖

soy libre, y lo siendo hace un par de semanas nadie me está viendo, nadie me busca hace ya tiempo y está bien porque yo tampoco lo hago un poco triste, pero liberador  ya no más

The first time I opened to my friends, in my car, about how much I hated myself, all the terrible and horrendous things I've said to myself during all my life, I saw how my friend's heart was broken on my behalf. Her eyes hurt, I saw pain and how bad she felt that I was saying all these words about her friend. I'd never seen second-hand pain in anyone's faces, specially if it was directed towards me. Everytime I speak harshly to me, that I treat me bad, I remember those eyes, that second-hand pain in them.  I'm sorry for hurting me in silence, for not telling you about it. 

i miss her a lot maybe it's wrong some days is too much other days is just a thought  but always what are you doing? i miss talking to her

Maybe for the first time in my life I feel like I can celebrate and commemorate this month. I can stand under this flag and feel party of this community. I have the right to be here.

 Realmente estar cerca de cumplir 30 años se siente como un logro porque la Marlene de 14 años nunca pensó que podía llegar tan lejos. Estamos bien, Marlene. Estoy haciendo lo posible para que podamos estar bien en el futuro también.